My dad joined my life before my first birthday. He was a larger than life character in his Corvette and as the story goes, I wasn’t so fond of him. When I would hear his car pull up for a visit, I would crawl as quickly as I could to the front door to try to shut it. I don’t remember those days of course, but it’s easy to imagine that I probably wasn’t too fond of my dad’s old school, lay down the law ways. Nevertheless, I soon became his 5th child by marriage and his legal child a few years later through adoption.
W.E. Green is the kind of dad that made me feel safe when I was young. He was strong and had a gregariousness that made people notice and respect him. He was a manager by profession so he has always known how to run things and make them happen. As a child I saw him as unbreakable, constant, and generous; and that made me feel loved.
I am grieving over his illness and the thought of him dying today. Lying quietly with eyes filled with tears, I began replaying in my mind scenes and stories of our life together–trips in the many motor homes we owned, Winchell’s Donuts and Church on Sundays, the horse races, and everyday snapshots like watching him walk around the neighborhood with our dogs, peeking at him when he takes a deep breath to pray over the thousands of meals we have had together and seeing him in his office with his Marilyn Monroe picture near him and using his pen to pay bills and then placing it in his lifelong pen holder.
Security is the theme that was impressed on my heart by these scenes. Throughout my life my dad has always made me feel secure. I never wondered if he would provide for me or if he would be there. I never wondered if I would be safe or if he would allow me to be placed in danger. I never wondered if he really knew what to do or was faking it. Nope, he was and has continued to be a source of security for me and I realized that his secure presence is really what I’m grieving today.
God’s word is a faithful friend in grieving and Psalms 121 is speaking to my hurting heart. It says in verse 7 and 8, “The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.”[pullquote] “The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.”[/pullquote] I love that God gently reminds me that ultimately HE is my security from now until I’m with him. He urges me not to fall into fear. It’s a sweet way that Jesus is hugging me and whispering, “I’ve got your back.” But even better is that I know that this verse is also for my dad– who is completely confident in Jesus, who has kept his life and will keep it safe all the way to the throne of God and forever.
Hanging tightly to the promises of God and forever grateful for all of your sweet comments, prayers, and hugs.